There were two things that I wanted to talk about this morning and couldn't decide which to cover. As it turns out, Bill Fowler happened to cover one of them rather well in a
post yesterday. A key phrase in that post: "The fact is, I saw people going through the motions because I was the one going through the motions. I was seeing what I wanted to see apparently." So I'll move on to the other subject.
This morning I asked God to work through me in every situation, whether big or small.
In one respect, the "big things" in my life are not really that big. Our innate sense of self-importance -- or mine, at least -- usually makes us see our own situations as being remarkably huge. That's natural, since the things we do, by definition, impact us before anyone else. But the world honestly doesn't hang on every move or decision that Dean Lusk makes, as difficult as that may be for me to swallow sometimes.
But in another respect, today is a big day! Every event that has happened to me in life, ever, has prepared me for this particular day. I'm reminded of the Star Trek episode "
The Enemy Within," in which Captain Kirk, due to a freak transporter malfunction, was split into two people, one having all his "good" traits and one all his "evil." In the end, his passive nature couldn't survive without his aggressive nature, and vice versa. Thank goodness for Scotty. (I have this nearly uncontrollable urge to spin this off into a touching "Who's
your Scotty?" post, but I wouldn't be able to live with myself.)

Now, whether we could
survive without having had bad things happen to us is highly debatable. I don't have time to dig into this quite as deeply as I'd like, because there are huge, centuries-old debates about this kind of thing (generically, "Why do bad things happen to good people?" or more specifically, for instance, "How could any good come of a family helplessly watching their little girl be swept away by the sea in a hurricane?"), but I can look back and see that God has, in fact, brought about positive things in my life and in the lives of others in spite of, and even sometimes
because of, the stupid, bad, and even painful things that I've done or been a part of.
Lest I forget, He's brought about positive things because of the occasional good, helpful, and not-so-stupid things that I've done in the past, too. It just seems that I don't learn as many life-changing lessons from the good stuff.
"And we know that God causes everything to work together for the good of those who love God and are called according to his purpose for them." (
Romans 8:28, NLT)