Of course, I have a feeling that the great majority of internet users (billions, I suppose) won't post a response, so as I go ahead and tell you, I think I'll be getting the short end of the stick.
To get straight to the point, I am afraid of failure. This fear easily trumps all the others. It's abstract, which unfortunately means that it will plug neatly into almost every situation.Golf? Ha ha ha! I'm not even going to comment. Cooking a pork roast? Who could mess that up? My point exactly, so when that's a fail it's one of the worst. Mario Kart? Ugh. The thing is, my fear of failure drives me to do my best, and sometimes (with the exceptions of golf and bowling) I see improvement from the last time.
One of the most major fears of failure -- one that actually has significant consequences as opposed to losing at a video game or something -- comes to mind when I read Jesus' prayer in John 17:11-12: "Now I am departing from the world; they are staying in this world, but I am coming to you. Holy Father, you have given me your name;now protect them by the power of your name so that they will be united just as we are. During my time here, I protected them by the power of the name you gave me. I guarded them so that not one was lost, except the one headed for destruction, as the Scriptures foretold."
Now, before you tell me that Jesus was God, I'm well aware of that. Bear in mind that Jesus' words here imply that He could've made the decision not to fulfill His mission; that He could've failed. But He didn't. He lived life in communion with His Father, diligently aware of that relationship moment by moment, and staying and in harmony with God.
Read what Paul wrote to the church in Corinth: "For even if you had ten thousand others to teach you about Christ, you have only one spiritual father. For I became your father in Christ Jesus when I preached the Good News to you. So I urge you to imitate me." (1 Corinthians 4:15-16, NLT)
We are responsible to teach, encourage, and train those we lead to Jesus Christ. That's not the responsibility of a pastor or a wise old teacher or some other "really religious" person. We're called to be witnesses, to make disciples, and to teach those people who become disciples of Jesus Christ.
While I admit to some fear in this area -- dropping the ball in discipleship and in my own walk with Christ -- it's not the fear of failure that drives me on this one. It's my love for the Lord and my desire to obey Him.
I'm interested in your thoughts. In the interest of space I couldn't cover every point here, so feel free to chime in with whatever strikes you. Of course 1 Corinthians 3:6-7 comes to mind when I'm tempted to beat myself up. I just want to make sure I'm doing what is required of me; that's something at which I must not fail.
6:24 AM







I think some friends (and maybe relatives) are getting the impression that I'm going off the deep end, but God has really been shaping my thoughts and focus (or foci) lately in a way that's different from what I've ever allowed Him to do. And the deep end, therefore, is a nice place to go off of. Safe-feeling? Not really. But if God's there, that's where I want to be.





